Eto ginawang title ko since eto yung status nung barkada ko and gusto ko siyang damayan kaya naisip ko na eto na lang din gawin kong status.

There are reasons to be manic of course. First and foremost natalo Ginebra against Red Bull. Pero di bale there's still one more obstacle left for Red Bull to overcome and syempre sa Purefoods ako mag-checheer para di manalo si Enrico and This one's for you Larry hehe.

The Steelers won the Super Bowl and sa kalaban nila ko kumampi because of the colors na blue green and for the fact that Seahawks yung underdogs for that game so syempre mas maganda yung sa underdog ka kakampi di ba? Para mas dramatic ang dating.

Talo La Salle last Friday against UE, which fielded in their UAAP lineup. 83-51 was the final score, nakaka-asar pero ayos lang talagang ganun eh. Mas malakas sila compared sa team B lineup ng La Salle. Next game is on Thursday against UST sa UST gym and on Saturday in La Salle sports complex against EAC which is also a strong team.

Yesterday I was able to watch the game between Rain or Shine and Magnolia sa PBL finals on TV. I was surprised to see how Junjun Cabatu performed pretty well against Arwind Santos on that game. He actually had a superb performance back in game 1 hitting the game winner and the shot that forced the game into overtime.

In game 2, he made a good performance again, hitting for 20+ points and outplaying the former UAAP MVP. Nagmumukhang tanga ang dating MVP and I can't believe it na pathetic ang performance ni Santos.pagdating sa PBL, maybe because nasasapawan siya ni Kelly Williams but that shouldn't be an excuse for a former MVP.

Wala pa ring decision regarding our suspension come next season. Sana may dumating nang hatol and medyo tanggap ko na rin if ever we get suspended. Ganun talaga mag-isip ang board eh, palpak lagi even if we did the right thing masama pa rin sa paningin nila. They should always stick it in their asses that the Adamson case is different from ours.

The LOA thing is bad either since para na ring na-admit ng school na meron ngang kasalanan and affected yung ibang sports na wala namang kasalanan.

Wala pa ring date come Valentine's day, what's new? Hehe. Senti na naman ako nito, anybody out there who needs a date? Post lang kayo sa tag board at nang maramdaman ko naman kayo. Madaming good movies coming in this month and bagay siguro pang-date haha. Tama na nga this entry becomes worse. Have a nice day kids and God bless.

Ang tagal din bago ko nakapagupdate ulit sa blog ko. Dapat kasi nung Sunday may new entry na ko kaya lang nag-brownout because of overloading ng mga jumpers sa lugar namin na walang katapusang problema na namin since I was in high school.

Well, ang galing ni Manny Pacquiao nung Sunday. What a superb win from the Pacman beating and flooring for the first time in his boxing career si El Terrible Morales. I thought it was impossible to floor the best Mexican fighter as of present but then Manny did the unthinkable.

I was even surprised when I got the news from the internet that Manny won via a round 10 knockout. Pero nung napanood ko na siya, iba nga talaga ang laro ni Pacman. Umangat ng ilang steps yung aggresiveness ni Manny and he proved all his critics wrong about his chances of beating Morales, who was known to be a superb technical and scientific boxer.

Larong kalye nga raw ang sabi nila ang naging susi para sa tagumpay ng Pacman against the technical tactician. Pero di naman ako naniniwala dun, Pacquiao also fought scientifically especially with those lightning speed punches and combinations that he threw aganst Erik. And those body shots really took its toll on El Terrible come round 10 which paved way for Manny to make some devastating shots to the head.

Sa paguwi ni Manny sa Friday, sabi ng iba, heroes welcome daw ang dapat na ibigay. Payag ako dun. Pambihira naman kasi ang ginawa ni Pacman. He united a nation for just a single day, nawala ang away politika, lahat ng uri ng tao nagkaisa nagkasundo mula sa mayaman hanggang sa mga mahihirap. Okay lang din na walang pasok although ayaw ng mga businessmen, it's not appropriate anymore sabi nila pero para sa kin Manny, bayani ka pare. Wish formore success and mas maganda kung may championship belt ka nang hahawakan this year.

Medyo pangit ang araw kahapon, natalo ang Phoenix, Air21, and GInebra. Lang hiya, Orlando na nga lang ang kalaban sumablay pa sila. Di ko alam what happened pero it was a 9 point win for the Magic. Going to the PBA, alam nyo naman kung gaano ako galit kay Enrico Villanueva at ang kanyang Red Bull squad, ayun nanalo lang naman sila against Ginebra.

Kainis kasi Ginebra had the last shot pero wala ring na-convert pero masayang masaya ko kasi na-block yung dunk attempt ni yabang haha! Kala niya siguro lahat kaya niyang dunk-an ng harap-harapan tsk tsk, wala talagang isip ang gago. Yan tuloy napala niya.

In the second game, Renren had an end game blunder that cost the Express the game against the Giants kaya naman ang Purefoods ngayon holds a 2-0 series advantage against the Express. Panalo na sana Air21 when Renren forced an issue while dribbling the basketball, ayun napasa niya to the wrong guy when he was double teamed and on the next possession, Chandler converted a tough shot which cost the game for Air21. Malas talaga.

Next issue is the mpending LOA filing of La Salle in this upcoming UAAP season 69. I don't agree on this move since para na rin natin inamin na meron na tayong kasalanan na ginawa and lalo na lang tayong lalaitin nito ng ibang schools na mas talamak pa ang kalokohang ginagawa nila kesa sa tin.

Kobe scored 81 points last Monday against the Raptors, medyo mahina yung team so it is really possible to do that feat. Pero kung ibang teams lang din ang kaharap nila, malamang di magagawa ni Kobe yan and he only had 2 assists in the game, ibig sabihin lang nun, lahat ng plays sa kanya napunta and every possession siguro tumitira siya and nagkataon na pumapasok kaya yun nakascore ng 81.

Mabuti na lang at nanalo sila sa game na yun kasi naman napakasakit nung for the Lakers kung natalo sila at umiscore ng 100 pa si Kobe, bale wala din yun. Nevertheless it was a good record since bihira din lang naman ang mga taong nakakagawa nun eh.

Although sunod-sunod yung kamalasan sa araw kahapon, medyo nakabawi naman kasi nanalo yung men's football team natin against UP, 2-1. And of course I had a chance to talk to Tanya again. Pero sana naman magkita na kami ng personal and at least I could have her cell number para naman kahit offline we can talk pa rin.

Damn, I am always looking forward to chat with her everyday, one of the most beautiful faces in school before nakakausap ko na right now! I just couldn't believe it pero it is happening right now and it really, really makes me happy and sobrang hina-hanap hanap ko siya everytime I go online, praying and hoping that she would be there to talk to me.

Sorry na Yvette, it was really wrong timing, nag-joke ka na medyo di ako natawa and I am not in my right mood swing that time. Hope you forgive me. Nagalit ako pero hanggang dun lang yun, no more , no less. Sana bati na tayo ulit pero if you don't want to talk to me anymore, di ko na problem yun. The ball is in your hands now. It's up to you how you'll handle it.

This is all for now. Ingat kayong lahat and God bless!

Whew, it's been 1 week plus since nag-update ako dito but anyways oks lang. So many things to do kasi kaya ayun nakalimutan magupdate ng blog entry.

So many sports happenings this coming weekend. First, it's the Pacquiao-Morales rematch. Honestly, I would want Manny to win but then Erik is just too good to be a tactician inside the ring, unless Manny gets his punches right with the new gloves that will be used, I think he'll be fine against Morales.

Kailangan lang matamaan ng solid or even lucky punch will do. As we all know, Morales hasn't been knocked out in his entire career. So a knockout will really provide satisfaction for us Pinoys and for Manny as well to demand a rematch against Barrera later this year.

A loss for Manny means it will be a bitter end for his career. Mahihirapan na siya humanap ng magandang fight nyan and to climb up the ladder again so to speak. Losing twice to the same foe is a big no-no in boxing circles and it will produce a bad reputation after all for Manny. So for our kababayan: good luck and God bless!

Next is the Home and Away Invitational League opening games today pitting La Salle versus Ateneo. It will be an exciting game to watch since both teams will use their team B's and some team A members who haven't played in the PBL. My take is that Ateneo will have a stronger lineup but then I feel that La Salle's patented plays will work to its favor to snatch a win I guess, but then it is a tough call pa rin. 50-50 chance of winning for the Archers.

Air21 Express lost game 4 last night so that means a winner take all game 5 is scheduled to take place later tonight at around 6pm I guess. Air21 had the chance to put away Talk N' Text last night but then the Phone Pals proved to be a tough nut to crack to force a deciding game 5. Bad trip, puro Air21 pa naman kami right now because of our comparison of Air21 to the Phoenix Suns who play free wheeling offense which is not boring to watch.

Sana manalo Air21, not only because Renren is there, mas okay silang panoorin manalo this season and I feel that they deserve to win it all this season. Magaling na coach si Bo Perasol who I don't know how he transformed this team since taking it over from Bong Ramos last year. Astig sila maglaro and their defense is also good for a team who loves to score.

Phoenix will entertain the Lakers tonight with a hope of the Suns trampling the Lakers, syempre (ayoko ata kay Kobe pero I'm planning to buy his shoes hehe). I honestly don't know what will happen to Phoenix later on in this season if they can progress further without Amare or they should expedite Amare's return to further boost the lineup. One good thing for Phoenix though, they are playing defense right now and I think it will be a good weapon against the mighty Spurs.

Ayun, those things will keep me busy during the weekend. Kakatapos lang magwork actually, need to settle some things for my engineers to work on. And syempre di ako matatapos without my songs. My song for the week is Narda by Kamikazee. Actually, I honestly don't like their songs before since it is purely shouting. Most of their songs e puro sigaw lang naririnig ko but this time around nagulat ako since iba yung theme ng song nila this time.

Medyo gusto ko yung message nung kanta even though parang at first the message is about having a crush on an imaginary superhero. Ganun naman nangyayari sa kin ngayon eh. Puro imaginary loving lang ang nangyayari. Mahal ko si ganito, ganyan pero hanggang isip lang. Daming inhibitions eh. Hirap talaga ng hindi guwapo, tapos hindi ka pa mayaman. Hirap pumorma sa girl pag ang puede mo lang ibigay is yung commitment na siya lang ang mamahalin mo and wala nang iba pa, sa kanya mo lang bibigyan attention mo and walang iba pa.

I don't know but sometimes I am thinking that girls are sometimes materialistic pero di naman siguro lahat. Well, may makikita din ako dyan na dream fulfilled and that would be my happiest day sa buong buhay ko siguro. No one can top that even a La Salle championship can replace it hehe.

May na-meet pala kong people last night na kasama ni Raymond sa singles encounter. Cute si Mai, I don't know if I spelled her name right. Siya yung una kong katabi and then she transferred because she had to smoke. Bad trip sayang gusto ko pa naman kausapin din. Malakas dating niya and I think she's witty. I guess may makikita pa kong magaganda once I get into my singles encounter come April. Another outlet for me to put my energy into instead of thinking those problems that I experience in my daily living.

Nakita ko rin pala si Kate last night. One of our classmates before. Wala lang. She's better looking right now. At least for me, she's all good right now. Tumaba na and nagkalaman and that really added asset into her. Di ko napigilan sabihin last night na she's a lot better looking right now than before kasi sobrang payat niya before and walang kalaman-laman, wala kang makukurot man lang but right now, panalo na hitsura niya.

Nung una nahiya pa ko batiin but then nakikilala pa pala niya kami hehe. She just came from the States daw and kaya siya tumaba because of eating while on vacation. Bottomline, crush ko din siya right now hehe. Di ko man lang nakurot yung braso niya last night, sayang di bale, makikita ko pa rin siya next time and I hope she's still single and one more thing, she's Chinese, so I must get prepared again to get dumped haha (eto na naman ang pagiging pessimistic ko eh hehe).

Oh well, this entry's getting too long already. I want to eat breakfast na and I'll cook muna. Get back to you guys soon. God bless and enjoy your Saturday.

Special regards to Tanya, Kate, Mai, Jack, and Kris. Thanks for keeping my world spinning round and round.

Narda
By Kamikazee

Tila ibon kung lumipad, sumabay sa hangin akoy  Napatingin   Sa dalagang nababalot ng hiwaga.   Mapapansin kaya sa dame ng yong gingawa   Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag asa bang makilala ka     Awit na nananawagan, baka sakaling napakikinggan,   Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan   Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip   Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna     Ang swerte nga nman ni ding, lagi ka nyang kapiling   Kung ako sa kanya niligawan na kita   Mapapansin kaya sa dame ng yong gingawa   Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag asa bang makilala ka     Awit na nananawagan,baka sakaling napakikinggan,   Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idadaan   Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip   Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna     Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin,para lang iyong sagipin   Ito ang tanging paraan para mayakap ka   Darating kayasa dame ng ginagawa   Kung kaagaw ko sila paano na kaya?     Awit na nananawagan,baka sakaling napakikinggan,   Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idadaan   Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip   Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna     Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip   Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna

Sayang talo na naman Phoenix kaya nga lang in triple OT pa. Lagi na lang sila natatalo pag mga multiple OT's ang pinaglalabanan nila. Kaka-asar. Ganda pa naman ng laro ni Nash. Wonderful game by the NBA MVP kaya lang swerte din si Carmelo, naka-43 points kahit na putok na ang ilong niya.

I have to give props to the guy. Ibang klaseng level na ang laro niya ngayon even though medyo struggling pa rin ang Nuggets. They are out of the playoffs as of present pero half game behind lang naman sila and malaki pa ang chance na makapasok sila sa playoffs.

I would like to give props as well to Earl Boykins who managed to score 33 points kahit na 5'5" lang ang height niya. Nakaka-inggit itong player na ito. BIruin mo, 5'5" lang e naglalaro sa NBA. Nakaka-shoot pa to get 33 points? Tama ba naman yun? Buti na lang nagagawa ko rin yan sa NBA Live. Nakaka-dunk pa ko for my height na 5'5" haha. So much for this one.

Matindi division ng Suns. 4 out of 5 teams in their division nasa playoffs with Suns leading the way of course with a 22-12 record, 2nd seed in the West if the playoffs start today. Only Sacramento failed to qualify in the playoff seedings as of now and hindi ko alam kung makakapasok pa sila with Abdur Rahim around. Malas ata itong player na ito kahit saang team siya malagay e nagiging alanganin yung team niya at hindi nakakapasok ng playoffs.

Going to the PBA, do or die game mamaya ang San Miguel. Damn it, after playing for 3 consecutive days e natalo din sila sa Air 21 nung Sunday pero nung closing minutes na lang nung game. Napagod na rin siguro. Sana manalo pa mamaya para matalo sa next game hehe.

I also want Alaska to win tonight para kalabanin ang Red Bull and patumbahin si Enrico "boy angas na bobo naman" Villanueva. I want MIke Cortez and Brandon Cablay to explode again and lead the way for the Aces to arrange a showdown with the stupid Barakos na walang karapatang manalo at patuloy kong isusumpa hanggang player nila si Enrico Villanueva.

Okay naman ang araw so far. Relaxing kahit na madaming ginagawa. Nasa mind setting nga lang talaga siguro ito and ayos naman ang gising ko kanina although I have to admit na medyo mahirap talaga gumising ng 4:30 in the morning to catch the morning shuttle.

I am listening to Lifehouse soings right now. Kaya lang ang masaklap nito, di ko alam mga title ng songs kaya ayun di ko mahanapan ng lyrics sa internet kahit gustong gusto ko siya i post dito sa blog.

Ayun din pala, naalala ko na yung movie ni Juday and Piolo na click daw ngayon, "Don't give up". Wala lang sabi ko kasi when I remember the title , I'll place it here since I mentioned it in my last entry. Gusto ko manood ng Narnia on Friday. Sino gusto sumama? Text nyo na lang ako if you want to join. Naghahanap lang ng kasamang manood ng movie.

Going to back to Lifehouse's songs, okay din mga songs nila kasi most of them are releasng their frustrations sa buhay and ever anger. Mas magadang way yan to release anger and frustration kesa naman magbasag ka ng bottle sa daan and makahurt ka pa ng tao physically.

Some of their songs discuss some questions about life, kung bakit nangyayari ito at ganun. Kaso ang problema lang, the whole song is all about questions, walang answers. Or for some, the answers come through other songs.

Maraming salamat sa mga dumadaan sa blog ko. Andyan ang tagboard para sa inyong lahat, feel free to say anything through the tagboard. At least I know andyan kayo lagi sa tabi-tabi.

Natuwa ako today at nakausap ko si Yvette. Wala lang. Namimiss ko na yun eh, ang hirap kausapin kasi pag busy. Di mo naiistorbo, masyadong serious sa work niya. HInay-hinay lang sa trabaho pare, tatanda ka kaagad nyan pero maganda ka rin of course.

May isang tao na gustong-gusto ko kausapin kaya lang di ko alam kung gusto pa niya ko kausap. Well, sana nga kausapin pa niya ko. Pagpasa-Diyos na lang ang lahat lahat. Miss ko na siya eh. Magparamdam ka naman sana. Sana lang po.

Have a nice day to all of you people. God bless!

Eto ang sakit ko ngayon. I dunno why. Dami ko pang pending pero wala lang energy to work on. I started out hot by finishing several tasks in the morning until lunch time.

Then in the afternoon, staff meeting and then kain ng lunch. Kwentuhan about upcoming movies na okay panoorin ngayon. 2 movies came above the rest, Narnia and yung movie nina Piolo't Juday na nakalimutan ko yung title (I'll add it up here once naalala ko siya).

Right now, I am listening to the new Eraserheads cd, actually not Eraserheads, it's more of a remake nung mga songs nila entitled Ultraelectromagneticjam. Okay din yung album, masaya and hindi nakakasawa. Cool and funky kasi almost every genre was represented in the album kaya most of the music sector was a contributor.

Mamaya siguro magkakape para magising. Mabuhayan ang isipan at katawang nananamlay hehe. Ewan ko ba, kailangan ko ata ng yelo, kailangan ko ata ng alkohol hahaha! No, stupid freak. Di mo kailangan nyan. Bumalik kaya ako ulit ng Cebu at magwork ulit dun via satellite? Parang boxing match ah hehehe.

Ang ganda ng season ko sa NBA Live 2006. Ang taas ng standing ng New Jersey Nets ko hehe. They are leading the East pero mahahabol na rin ng Pistons pero makaka-ahon din kami and tatalunin ko yang Pistons na yan hehe.

Wala nang magawa kaya eto, twice gumawa ng entries para gumaan ang pakiramdam. Masarap magsulat dito, eto ang nagiging kausap ko sa hirap at ginhawa hehe. On Thursday baka magfield trip kami sa museum ng La Salle Dasma.

By the way, meron nang off season tournament na sasalihan ang La Salle basketball team, which is the Home and Away Invitational League. I dunno what was our record last year but then at least makikita ko na ulit maglaro ang Green Archers habang inaantay ang decision ng board kung suspended ba last year or not.

Sana matalo nila Ateneo sa opening game nila. Manonood ako nun for sure hehe. Wala na kong masulat. Syempre, mas song for the hour ako and here it is: Huwag kang matakot by Orange and Lemons.

INTRO

Huwag kang matakot
‘Di mo ba alam nandito lang ako
Sa iyong tabi
‘Di kita pababayaan kailanman
At kung ikaw ay mahulog sa bangin
Ay sasaluhin kita

CHORUS 1
Huwag kang matakot na matulog mag-isa
Kasama mo naman ako
Huwag kang matakot na umibig at lumuha
Kasama mo naman ako
Huwag kang matakot

Huwag kang matakot
Dahil ang buhay mo’y walang katapusan
Makapangyarihan ang pag-ibig
Na hawak mo sa iyong kamay
Ikaw ang Diyos at hari ng iyong mundo
Matakot sila sa ‘yo

[Repeat CHORUS 1 except last line]

CHORUS 2
Huwag kang matakot na magmukhang tanga
Kasama mo naman ako
Huwag kang matakot sa hindi mo pa makita
Kasama mo naman ako
Huwag kang matakot
Aahhhah

[Repeat CHORUS 1]

Huwag kang matakot (huwag kang matakot)
‘Di kita pababayaan kailanman
[Repeat till fade]

Gandang kanta nito, just listened to this song last night before sleeping. Post ko lang dito. Wala lang maisip kung ano pang puede ilagay sa entry for today. Blangko ang isip so far.

You know I can't smile without you

Andito na ang 2006 and of course, common ang resolutions, actually, I've seen my friends in their other blogs that they put their own resolutions in there.

But for me, I wanted to change it a little bit. Gagawin ko na lang itong wishlists. Things that I wanted to happen to things that I wanted to have this year. Di naman necessarily that I wanted to have them all this year. Puede din na yung iba on a later date na lang hehe. As we all know, depende lahat kay God yan kung gusto niya ipagkaloob yung mga wishlists na yun sa kin.

1. To work under the sourcing team in Intel for Q2 this 2006. Mas gusto ko kasi ng mga project based works.

2. Magkaroon ng girlfriend and I can consider as someone special who will take care of me and I will love aside from my parents, family, and current crop of friends.

3. Good health and strength to face every challenge that I'll face this year and be more mature in handling problems everyday.

4. To have a new celfone, especially that Sony Ericsson k600i.

5. To have that Air Zoom Huarache 2k5 or 2k6, if Nike's planning to release them this year.

6. To buy an ipod nano, at least yung low end lang. Di ko naman kailangan na masyadong high end na ipod.

7. Di masuspend ang La Salle for season 69 of the UAAP.

8. If ever La Salle gets to play in the UAAP this year, mag-champion sila syempre.

9. Good performance in my work to get a good increase.

10. Makapag-abroad na si kuya so that we can get a good headstart in turning our fortunes around.

11. Gather more friends as possible. Get to know more people and learn from them as well.

12. A brand new car, ooops, I think this is quite overboard.

13. Mag-champion ang Phoenix Suns sa NBA, another long shot deal hehe.

For now I think eto lang muna, I'll add up to them na lang.

God bless to all of you and sana magkaroon kayo ng magandang week.

Sensya na medyo baduy title ko ngayon. Wala talagang maisip na title eh. Medyo blurred pa ang pag-iisip. Para akong naumpog na hanggang ngayon ay di pa nagkakamalay.

Grabe siguro pagkakaumpog ko 'no? Imagine hanggang ngayon para kong sinuntok ni Manny Pacquiao, and not just his simple jab, yung killer punch pa niya siguro.

The journey of this chapter sa libro ng buhay ko ends here. Di ko pa alam kung kelan ang next chapter. Di ko alam kung may dadating pa na next chapter, so help me God na lang.

The positive thing that happened was naging sobrag sipag ko ngayon and parang wala na kong takot, siguro ang mindset ko ngayon is who cares? Bahala na, all out attack all the time, patay kung patay, ang bumangga, giba, parang ganun ba?

Just came home from a 5 day vacation in Cebu. Nag-relax lang ng konti, bisi-bisita sa mga kamag-anak, pumuntang bukid, first time ko nga lang nakita yung plantation nila mama sa Leyte. Ang laki pala ng lupa nila dun. Coconut trees mostly yung nakatanim and dun sa iba palay na.

Nakakapagod din ang biyahe. Mas nakakapagod syempre yung land trips as compared to the air trip. 1 hour lang naman kasi yung air trip eh. Yung land trip almost every minute, land trip kami and puno yung vehicle kaya we can't assume our favorite positions while taking the trip, in short di kami comfortable sa upo namin sa van.

Kain dito, kain doon. Di nawalan ng lechon sa bawa't bahay na pinuntahan namin. Ang dami ding handa kaya ayun, feeling ko ang bigat-bigat ko na naman as compared before. I need to play some serious basketball starting this Saturday para naman mabawasan ang taba.

And kung ma-suspend pa La Salle this season 69, mas matagal-tagal na laruan ito, meaning more opportunity to lose more weight at pumayat naman ng konti, baka di na naman magkasya yung mga ibang damit ko nito at kay kuya na naman siya mapupunta.

Sarap ng bakasyon, di naman ako umitim sa swimming, tamang languyan lang naman pero paguwi ko pala sasalubong sa kin ay isang trahedyang di ko maiiwasan. Mahirap mang tanggapin at napakasakit ay ganun talaga ang buhay. Sa isang laban, may namamatay, may nasusugatan, may natatalo, may nasasaktan.

First time nangyari sa kin ito and syempre masakit dahil first time (itigil ninyo mga ka-manyakan ninyong iniisip dyan). Ganun pala yun ano? Parang kinain ko yung mga salita ko dati. Kala ko ganun-ganun na lang yun, madaling iwasan, madaling palipasin, hindi pala. Mali ako sa inaakala ko. I underestimated everything and I fell kinda pretty much hard than what I've expected.

It's first Friday don't forget folks, simba tayo at magpasalamat sa Diyos at we are still alive and kicking. Pasalamat tayo at may purpose pa pala tayo sa mundong ito kaya hanggang ngayon ay buhay tayo. Salamat at may mga pagsubok at paghihirap tayong dinadanas kasi kung wala ito, patay na tayo ngayon at malamang nasa langit na kayo, impyerno naman ako dahil ako'y isang makasalanan.

Isa na lang pending kong trabaho at tinatamad pa kong gawin, masarap makinig ng sounds ngayon, makes me relaxing kahit konti. Pero di ako makatawa at hindi ako natatawa sa mga nangyayari sa kin thus far. Sabi ko nga kanina sa kaibigan ko, "the only thing that makes me happy right now is the fact that I am still alive and I feel that I still have a purpose and a mission to do here on Earth".

Dahil sa sinabi kong para akong sinuntok, may kanta akong naisip, i describe this song as para kong hilong-hilo pero i'm trying to be just fine. And the second song is what I'm trying to get right now.

I Can See Clearly Now

I can see clearly now the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way,
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) sunshiny day.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) sunshiny day.

I think I can make it now the pain is gone,
And all of the bad feelings have disappeared,
Here is the rainbow I've been praying for.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) sunshiny day.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) sunshiny day.

Look all around, nothing but blue skies.
Look straight ahead, nothing but blue skies.

I can see clearly now the rain is gone.
I can see all obstacles in my way.
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) sunshiny day.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) sunshiny day.
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) sunshiny day.

With a Smile

lift yer head
baby dont be scared
of the things that could go wrong
along the way
youll get by with a smile
u cant win at everything but u can try
and baby u dont have to worry
coz there aint no need to hurry
no one ever said that theres no easy way
and when theyre closing all their doors
and they dont want u anymore
this sounds funny but ill say it anyway
girl ill stay
through the bad times
even if i have to fetch u everyday
ill get by if u smile
u can never be too happy in this life
coz in a world where everybody hates
a happy ending story
its a wonder love can make the world go round
but dont let it bring u down
and turn ur face into a frown
ull get along with a little prayer and a song
lift yer head
baby dont be scared
of the things that could go wrong along the way
well get by with a smile
now its time to kiss away
those tears goodbye

I definitely love this song right now. Pero di ko alam kung kanino siya dededicate. I can think of one person pero sa kin na lang muna. Bigla ko lang siya naalala kagabi. Di ko na siya masyadong iniisip before until last night when I saw her in my dreams again.

Ayoko sabihing signs siya, dahil lumang tugtugin na siya and medyo baduy hehe. Naniwala ako dyan before but right now ewan ko kung maniniwala pa ko. Masakit and mahiap magmahal na hindi alam nung taong mahal mo na mahal mo pala siya. Silent lover ika nga, di pala umuubra yun. Na-torpe kasi eh, ayan iyak-iyak ka ngayon.

Hay ewan ko ba, madami namang dumating at nakilala pero parang walang talab. Di ko masabi kung mapili ako or what, dapat di naman kasi di naman ako kaguwapuhan para mamili pa ng magandang babae pero iba talaga ang feeling. Gusto ko suntukin at magalit sa sarili ko pero di ko naman personality yun.

Tanga lang siguro ako or maybe tama nga mga barkada ko that I'm totally stupid and mapili. May nagsabi pa na perfectionist daw ako kaya ayun, matagal bago makakita ng kung anu mang dapat kong hanapin.

Bigla pa kasing sumagi sa isip ko itong taong ito. Di ko tuloy alam kung matutuwa ako or hindi. Kung bakit ba kasi ako natakot, kung bakit ba kasi ako nagdalawang isip, ayan nawalan ako tuloy ng isang napaka-importanteng bagay na puede kong alagaan habang-buhay.

Madaling sabihin na may mahahanap rin dyan pero mahirap gawin. Sabi nila wag maghanap, dadating din daw pero wala naman akong makitang parating saka paano ko makakakita ng parating kung di ko susubukang maghanap at lumabas. Ang gulo nga naman ng mga kasabihan ano? Nakakalito.

Gusto ko siya makita this xmas season. Parang feeling ko tuloy di ito makukumpleto pag di ko siya nakita. Ang cute pa naman ng picture sa friendster, mas nag-aayos na siya ngayon eh. Dati hindi, halos simple lang manamit, ngayon may ja-porms na, gumanda tuloy lalo.

Wala lang magawa kaya nagbuhos ng sama ng loob sa blog. Masaya magwork ngayon, walang istorbo sa office, walang halos tumatawag na supplier at halos naka-leave karamihan ng mga tao.

Happy new year sa inyong lahat! God bless to all of you.

Kung Wala Ka

Natapos na ang lahat
Nandito pa rin ako
Hetong nakatulala
Sa mundo

Hindi mo maiisip
Hindi mo makikita
Ang mga pangarap ko
Para sa iyo

Oh…
Hindi ko maisip
Kung wala ka
Oh…
sa buhay ko

Nariyan ka pa ba
Hindi ko na matanaw
Kung merong madadaanang
Pasulong

Sundan mo ang paghimig ng lulan
Na aking pinagtanto
Sundan mo ang paghimig ko

Isingit ko lang din pala itong kanta na ito, medyo applicable din sa kin eh, maganda din message hehe. Akong-ako ata itong kanta na ito at kinakanta ko siya right now. Nerbyoso by Rivermaya. Enjoy your holidays folks!

Nerbyoso

Isang gabing kasama ka
Walang ginagawang iba
Kundi mag-usap sa mata

Bigla akong tinawag
Uwian na pala
Pag-lingon ko'y wala ka na
Ilang gabi na 'kong lubhang nagdaramdam
Kahit pangalan mo'y hidi ko pa alam

Sasabihin ko na sana't
Aaminin sa iyo
Lahat lahat ng itinatago ng
Puso kong
Alipin ng kaba
Alam mo naman tayo
Walang magawa
Nerbyoso…

Nais ko sanang makapiling kang muli
Kahit saglit lang kahit lamang sandali
Pagka't ilang gabi na 'kong nagdaramdam
Pa'no kung di ka na muling matagpuan
ilang gabi na 'kong lubhang nagdaramdam
kase mahal kita hindi mo pa alam

Malapit na pasko. I'm still in the office. Madami na nag-half day since this could be the last day of making Christmas shopping rush for most people. Ang sarap pumasok sa office. Wala masyadong istorbo. Tahimik ang paligid and wala masyadong dapat sagutin sa inbox.

Last night was one hell of a day since xmas party namin and we danced ala-sex balls (yung ginagawa nila Michael V of bubble gang) to the tune of Sweet Child of Mine and Jump guess where? Sa Congo Grill sa may Alabang, Westgate in particular.

Medyo nakakahiya yung ginawa namin pero it was lot of fun. Hindi ko maimagine na magagawa ko yun to dance ala macho dancer sa harap pa ng maraming tao since glass doors and windows lang ang pagitan ng mga function rooms nila and madami pang nagcecelebrate ng xmas parties nila last night kaya yun, nagmistulang parang gay bar ang Congo Grill.

Matindi pa nito, nung magbibihis na kami to change our clothes after performance, dumaan pa kami sa isang mahabang table wherein madaming nakaupong girls who are also celebrating their xmas party. Pinagtawanan kami of course, pati nga yung manager ng Congo Grill natawa din sa ginawa namin. A gutsy performance daw, gusto pa ng manager namin ng repeat hehe. May bayad na yun if ever we opted to do it again.

Sobrang dami ng food, halos di na ko makahinga sa dami ng nakain ko kaya lang sayang since wala akong dalang car, wala akong nadalang take out food. Lahat kasi ng mga office mates kong may dalang car, nag-uwi ng food. As in dala-dalawang putahe pa ang pinabalot nila. Sayang talaga, sana may nauwi man lang ako sa bahay.

Nakakapagod paguwi, halos diretso na ko sa kama para matulog pero I wasn't able to forget to watch the late night news before lying to bed and have a nice sleep, malamig pa naman ang panahon kaya ang sarap matulog talaga, the best.

Isa pang sayang, di kami nagpang-abot ni wenkgirl. Pagdating niya sa Congo Grill, sakto namang papa-alis na kami at nasa terminal na ko ng bus sa Metropolis. Di bale there's always next time naman. Pero kung may dala kong car, malamang nag-stay pa ko to see and have a little chat with her.

Why Introvoys? Ewan ko, eto yung cd na naiwan dito ng cubemate ko. By the way, ako nga lang pala mag-isa ngayon sa cube ko kaya ang sarap, solong-solo ko kung ano man ang gusto kong gawin dito. Next week na ko bibili ng gifts, maybe Monday since yun lang naman ang holiday hehe.

Magaganda pa rin kanta ng Introvoys, relaxing and sayang kasi wala na sila. Yan pa ang laging nagcoconcert sa school nun nung elementary/high school pa kami hehe kaya laging sulit yung mga songs nila sa min kahit medyo may pagka-senti yung mga songs nila, the beat goes right and nagiging okay yung kanta.

Bibili ako mamaya ng shoes and damit ko para naman may pamasko ako sa sarili ko hehe. Sweldo namin today but I have to take note of my money baka maubos kaagad, sayang naman dapat matuto din magtipid.

I think this is all for now. Merry Christmas to all of you. God bless!